कुत्ते (Kutte)

This is a poem that my roomie Arun had written long time back, but he revealed it to me some days back. I liked the idea behind it...and so here it is..its titled "Kutte"

kutte bhonkte hain
kaat te hain
jab paagal ho jaen
toh kisi ko bhi kaat leinte hain
kisi ko bhi aaj tak
is baat ki samajh nahin
ki waisa kyun karte hain
par fir bhi
log kutton ki tarah bhonkte hain..kaat te hain
kaash unko yeh pata ho jaye
ki kutte aisa kyun karte hain
veh chand ke kshitij ke
us paar chale jaen
jahan aaj tak koi nahin gaya
aaj ka to sabab ban gaya hai
kisi se thodi jhidak ho gayi..bhaunk do
naukri chahiye, promotion chahiye, vote chahiye, kursi chahiye,
aur kya kya nahin
bus dum hilao
kaam na bane toh bhaunk do
sambhalkar, kaatna mat
kyunki sab ek se badhkar ek kutte hain
koi alsesian hai, koi labradorian hai
toh koi CBI ka bada sa, mota tagda, shikari kutta
ek pyari si, kamseen bhikhareen thi
footpath par anaath se nayi kali bani thi
ki kisi kutte ki nazar lag gayi
sale ne noch khasot khaya
woh bahadur nahin, gali ka harami aur awara kutta tha
jise veh kabhi apni bheekh ke roti ke tukde daal diya karti thi
bechari, pyari
kutte jab jhund main chalte hain
toh gali ka akela kutta,
dum hilata hua dubak sa jata hai
aaj ke kutte jab jhund mein chalte hain
toh woh dubak ta nahin, jhund mein shamil ho jata hai
naya karyakari sadasya kutta
kutte jab jhund mein chalte hain
keval bhaunkte hain, dabe kuchlon par
yeh kutte jab jhund banalein, train mein aag laga denge
petrol chhidak kar, sabko jinda jala denge
tinka se tan tak, rakh kar denge
bhagwa fahraenge, jayghosh karenge
jai sriram, ho gaya kaam
ya allah, balle balle,
sat sri akal, chahe aajae bhuchal
kutton ki ijjat hoti hai
shayad inhein pata nahin
par yeh pata hai
inki koi ijjat nahin
maa, bahu, beti, behen, sabki ijjat ho
sab bhaunkne ko aaye, khunti par tang denge
inhe kutton ki tarah bhaunkna aata hai
gurrana aata hai, kaatna aata hai
par, wafadari nahin aati
kutton ki wafadari jag prasiddh hai
inki bewafayi ke kisse hawaon mein gunjte hain
deewar ke iss paar se uss paar
kaan ke shravan parde ke iss paar se uss paar
spasht sune jaa sakte hain

A Night along the Scholars' Avenue !!

It was a dark night, made even darker by the drizzle. And there I was, waiting for my turn, not knowing what to anticipate. Something had just got over in my hall, so I was quite excited (and still am) !! People went in and came out, some in five minutes, some in fifteen. And believe me when I say, the time taken was proportional to the size of the person going in !! And then it was mine. I had been to the selection for the Scholar's Avenue team, and was it a selection? There were people of all types: tall, short, fat, lean, chubby, cute, female, etc. OMG it almost looked as if I was there being interrogated by the CBI.
Have you seen the television series CBI on Sony? Well I felt almost that.
The Sir in front of me, was pretty straight face and had no emotions but a silent anger. The one next to him, was the one trying to screw me up, he was just jumping and pouncing on me, as if trying to extract some valuable information from me. I dont know if those people were trying to be friendly with me or trying to test my patience !! I still dont know what they wanted to me do?? At one instant I felt as if they were going make me a Phantom and ask me to take two rounds of the gymkhana!! There was this very senior Sir who kept coming close to me and made many faces (remember Mr Bean, well something of that sort, though not really). And then I didn't have the guts to look at that person sitting on the right most. Whenever I see him, I get a blushy smile on my face, please don't ask why!!
My right ear, was hearing something like "bike bike ban ban" and the left ear was hearing something like "aditya listen, listen to me, hello" as if someone was trying to talk to me, but the right side people were not letting me go. And then finally I turned my head with a jerk to the left and there was a cute little lady! I couldnt make out if she was giving me a hidden smile or a blush, but well anyways, she was ACTUALLY trying to screw me up (how bad!!).
So what could I do?? Eventually I was Looking london, and Talking Tokyo!! And they picked that up and screwed me up further, and Im still feeling the screw drilling in my head as I'm writing this particular write up!!
But Ahh here I'm, through with both the assignments fianlly !!

Life at Kgp

Ever wondered how, the tree covers suddenly change as you wade your cycle rickshaw through the main entrance near Puri Gate? Or ever noticed the ratio of the width of the road just outside to that just inside the main gate? Well, perhaps all that most of you ever noticed was the beach of magnificent luminescence of the yellow lights hanging from both sides of the avenue. Just outside the main gate, and just inside, are different worlds and it is quite acceptable if you go out
of the campus one fine day after a long time and get a cultural setback.
Well that's just about the beggining of IIT Kharagpur.
The spectrum of sounds and smells one can get in the campus, is no smaller than the spectrum of experiences you can have here. Be it the sweet chirping of the Cuckoos or the rumbling of the diesel engine circumnavigating the campus; be it the aroma from the stove of good ol' Cheddis, the smell of fresh dew over the grass in Jnan Ghosh, or the nostalgic smells of your organic chemistry laboratory, you'll always find something different. There are those beautiful "Corollas
in the background, and Corollaries in your head". Just like any metropolitan city, here in Kgp as well, the smells, and sounds change every one hundred metres.

Whether its spending the Saturday night with your mates hanging around the campus, or watching some movie on your comp, there aint a reason why you'll find yourself getting bored here. Counter Strike goes on 24 X 7 on the LAN, or you can just sit with your friends and go on
'bhattin' throughout the night. Some people prefer studying, but we believer they are a different make altogether. Its true that we have come to IIT to become the best damn engineers in the world, but the Experience of Life is the better part of it here.
It is worth quoting:
"Life at Kgp is a celebration of, well, LIFE !!"

Burning the Bridges

You trusted me to grow..
I gave my heart to show..
There's nothing less..
I've cherished all..
I stand by you for sure..
Now the Greatest Reward..lies in front of me..as a form of you know wat....cos i never even expected that gift from you..never...infact I dint even know someone could give that to a friend. But hey it was soooooooo cute...it was like...$#^$&%^*

You've burnt the bridge of friendship !! there aint any concrete left dear..Sorry !! But I'm not prepared to swim.

Another Day In Paradise

She calls out to the man on the street 'sir, can you help me?
It’s cold and I’ve nowhere to sleep,
Is there somewhere you can tell me?'
He walks on, doesn’t look back
He pretends he can’t hear her
Starts to whistle as he crosses the street
Seems embarrassed to be there
Oh think twice, it’s another day for You and me in paradise
Oh think twice, it’s just another day for you, You and me in paradise
She calls out to the man on the street
He can see she’s been crying
She’s got blisters on the soles of her feet
Can’t walk but she’s trying
Oh think twice...
Oh lord, is there nothing more anybody can do
Oh lord, there must be something you can say
You can tell from the lines on her face
You can see that she’s been there
Probably been moved on from every place’cos she didn’t fit in there
Oh think twice...

मैं इतना बडा मखाऊ भी नहीं हूँ ...after all

Hmm...Im not lying baba..
So...the day was good...different...In the last few days I have put in some effort to understand php/mySQL and that has been working for me since last few days. Was asked to start working on a few web projects..and now I have finally started getting things under my control..but still I would call it a bit too messy. Things need to get organised. I also got selected for the Technology Literary Society of the Gymkhana, along with my roomie Arun.
I was made a Phantom (wats a Phantom...underwear and banyan worn over shirt and trousers.) today....was fun...seriously.
And apart from that..nothing much..just the usual frustration moving up and down my mind.
Cya later..Bbye.

Today I had to !

Things seem to be so close yet so far...
Finally I was able to connect my html forms using php to a mysql databse..whew...and all it needed was for the Techguy to come to my room and change one word in the code. Anyways thats another dimension to it...wat about my own f00king life ...thts in bad bad situation..GOD pleas help. Im not knowing where to go and why...not knowing how to go and when...thts the whole problem...
And people come into my life and ruin that too!!!! How bad.
Bhak..I dont wanna say anything else..Me is a frust, makhaoo, guy!! Dats wat I am.

Looking through the Kaleidoscope

An assortment of colours defining life are all that I see when I look through the kaleidoscope of Life. What does it mean?? The various moments and aspects of this little mortal word LIFE start to circle over in front of your eyes... Love, humour, relations, emotions, everything and anything that you can think of. And then one fine day, when you feel lost in the bushes, you just cry out, cry out on not just yourself, cry out on the world..you just burst out. Is there a way to keep going? Do we have the strength to always keep saying 'Miles to go before I sleep and Miles to go before I sleep' ? What does MY life mean to Others?? What does my life mean to ayone other than my PARENTS and my clsoest relatives?? Do I really mean something to my Friends? Perhaps not at all. Why else would I have to end up going places alone? Rhetorics keep popping in front my eyes the same way as browser windows pop up when you visit a porn website. Its been 20 years and still I'm in search of a friend..a someone special..those I have have become distant, no one ever stayed close enough for long enough. Or I never stayed !! But then what should I do? Look for someone? Or wait for something to come my way? Keep moving on my way though it is barren? I dont know.. Im confused..at all times its me who keeps buzzing people, perhaps I have started expecting too much from those I think I can make friends with. But then there are times when I end up telling them 'I'm not in a modd to tak, and I'm out of words, I dont know what to say, perhaps I'm boring you a lot, Bye.' ....
Thats the way things are !!

Life On Rent

You are looking at the wall and it crashes right in front of your face.You are looking at life and it dies in front of you.You are looking at your future and see it burning in front of your eyes.You are holding someone in your hands and find him/her slipping away smoothly.You let time pass by and hope for things to get sorted out but that don't happen ever. You cant let time rule you. You have to take everything in your stride and try to rectify it. You must not feel bad about your decisions once they have been taken. Thoughts should have gone in earlier. Past is gone and it goes faster than light. We've learnt how to live Longer but not how to live Better. We've been all the way to the Moon and back, but how does that help petty earthlings when they cant even cross the street to meet their old friend? We sure have multiplied our possesions but have enormously divided our values. That should not have happenned, ever. But what can we do, we all want to Globalise, right?? We dont realise that we are not fooling anyone else but ourselves. We must not take it to be granted that we are living a bad life, have a look on the streets and villages and see how many people dont even get a chance to live.
We cant give our LIFE ON RENT ! Its too precious to do that.

Trying it out !! अब हिन्दी में ।।

कोशिश कर रहा हूँ, हिन्दी में पहली बार ब्लॉग कर रहा हूँ।

Way things seem..seem to be after me

All of life, is it a mere illusion? Or a check into reality?

Things are not the way they seem to be, or are they really?? I dont know and may be I would never end up knowing. Looking through, flipping the pages of the news paper, or just scrolling my browser to check the news on the net, it seems life is coming to a sad flip all over all around everywhere. Emotions, actions, interpretations, all going the other way down. In all this mess, it makes little sense if it does at all to go after the things that we want to. But to get them we will need to!! Wat am I saying...

When we look around us, and see the sweeper sweeping the part of lobby in front of our rooms, we feel we are at a much better place in life, but when we look up and look back at ourselves, we feel, where are we ?? We feel like we are nothing....atleast I feel like it.

Wat does it feel like listening to an old list of songs, suddenly, once in a while?? Feels good, and feels like crying. Dont know why and how, but it feels like a change, a sudden difference in atmosphere around me. Suddenly, I'm looking at things differently..suddenly things mean different for me..suddenly I've realised that I need to look at different people with different perspectives. Sometimes its the wrong ones who love you right, and sometimes its your own heart that stings you inside. Sometimes you hate your own self. Sometimes things just dont follow the rule book.

Am I talkin too much crap today? I donno..the reader is the best judge...Wats this blog? An entry into someone's personal life?? Or is it a way in which Im trying to collect sympathy? I dont know..there are many who write personal blogs, Im just one of them, its just a way to release your emotions.

I guess this is it for the day, C'est tout pour aujourd'hui, au revoir!!

Why do people misunderstand me??

Sometimes it becomes very difficult for me to explain my position to people.. and I just dont know how to do it or how to defend myself. I m finding myself in a position where not just a few but many people are taking me differently, perhaps something has to be wrong at my end..perhaps obviously. The so called OP is still goin on and may go on for some more days. This is the time when I m not getting time to even think for a moment. I dont know how to go about doing things and how to go about managing my stuff. Maybe I just wait for some more time and see if there is a sunshine ahead. Right now Im feeling like Im swimming in a dark swimming pool, fearing that I might get drowned. I just hope someone pulls me outta it!!